bir gun oldu, iki gun oldu, ay oldu, yil oldu..

Çok sığ kalmıştı herşey ben işin derinindeyken..

As the knowledge of his death sinks in, and the shock of it wears off, I am finding myself increasingly sad he is gone.

farewell....

I have not been blogging for a long time, because there was nothing stimulating me to do so- till last thursday.. unfortunately.. i ve been stimulated by a bad news that had broken on CNN at midnight... a news that did burst the world into tears as well as me.. shocking death of Michael Jackson from cardiac arrest at the age of 50.

now i feel obliged to pay my tribute to the best musician of my life time in my short 30 years. Yes.. its Michael Jackson- my childhood love.. died last thursday..

I remember the days my heart was stolen by MJ as a child into adult life, the days when i was so eager to have his portait tatooed on my back... Just about every kid that grew up in the 80’s loved Michael. We dressed like him, imitated his unique dance, stayed up late to watch his videos, and knew every word to every song on his albums.. one of our biggest inspirations ever..

My heart is heavy now; I am brokenhearted..I dont want to write any further as it makes me feel terrible..

I want to remember him as a phenomenal performer and how he strived to changed the world by reaching one person at a time with his music. Its quite hard to accept he is gone.. I always thought that he would be a real old..

He will be missed forever..

Sometimes i feel down and need someone to bring me up..

if you can't find something to live for, you best find something to die for

yeteneksiz

“İnsanlarla ilişki kurma yeteneği, şeker ya da kahve gibi satın alınabilir bir şeydir. Ve ben bu yeteneğe her şeyden daha fazla bedel öderim. Güneşin altındaki her şeyden daha fazla.”

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense."
-- Emerson

Becoming the Boss of the Mind

Most people keep thinking the same kind of thoughts, and visualize the same mental images in an unconscious automatic manner. This means they keep viewing the same movie in their minds, and consequently go on creating and living the same kind of life. You can change the thoughts and images in your mind, which is equivalent to inserting a new cassette into the VCR of the mind. As thoughts create events and circumstances, by changing the habitual thoughts, life's events and circumstances change too. Most people don't know or don't believe that it is possible to change their way of thinking. The reality of this possibility has never occurred to them. There are people who have the knowledge and make the effort.

If they persist in their efforts to become more conscious of their thinking process, and attempt to control and filter the contents of their minds, they realize in a practical and direct way that their thoughts are creative and possess power. Silencing the mind is a higher stage that very few know about, and fewer take practical steps to achieve. If and when one reaches this goal he realizes that he is not his mind or his thoughts, but something beyond. He realizes and experiences in a very clear and direct manner the reality of his True Essence, and the illusion of what is called "reality". The ability of silencing the mind is the key to the switch of the mind, enabling us to turn it on and off as we wish. When we are able to switch it off at will, we experience serenity of mind, strenght


Silencing the thoughts and the incessant, tiring, consuming chatter of the mind makes us enjoy a peaceful and joyous consciousness. At this stage we become the boss of the mind.

my friend tells me " but my father says its simple, we (our generation) our and I quote 'so f* spoiled, don't know real hard time, you forget the basic of life and have too mch F* time on your hards to worry about irrelevant items beyond our control'.

and i could not agree more

Remember, results matter more than good intentions and staying busy

dear blog,

i ve not really been looking forward to having any daily routine maintenance work; but it happened all of a sudden... and i created you.. i am sorry.. i am not protective, caring, well organized blogger . i m sorry for neglecting you for a long time.. you mean much to me (emm., ok i know this did not sound right).. anyway ... u r just a friend of me i drop few words when i have mood transitions.. not more.. i can not write all wishes, thoughts, weaknesses and stregths, happennigs, events, occasions here. u know i am not confident sharing ever pinch of thought or feeling i have. they gotta stay in untold misery...

Life itself is an examination which we sometimes pass and sometimes fail.. I personally try to accept the situations I can not alter, modify, edit, add, refresh or delete … accept it as it is.. no questioning. no “why me?” no “why is it so?” Since nobody knows the answers...

Asperity stays till we deliver a course of lectures and leaves after being confident that we are matured enough to draw the lesson from all that sorrow… It hurts, but it passes.. all the case is, to capture the true meaning hidden behind.…..

dear god .. I sound more like robin sharma than actual me…. he-he

All is gonna get better and become old hat!

Only wanted to share a piece of my aspect to life.

A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his opportunities and an optimist
is one who makes opportunities of his difficulties